Iron Fist In A Velvet Glove

Dark side.
A dark side of life we usually hide. Hiding the pain behind the smile. Happy pictures on social media. Smiling bright in the morning but heavy rainfall on the pillow every night. Light bags and heavy hearts. The "I don't care" attitude but deep down sobbing. A dual life which we all live in. Punishing ourselves. Giving up on things. When it's 2am and sliting of wrists and your world is crashing upside down like never before. Sitting on the bathroom floor and crying. Crying out loud but no noise is heard. A bleeding heart but no one can see. No wonder what a relationship can make you do. And a broken relationship can break you. SILENTLY. And that's the point when we start hiding our sorrows behind the smile and at some point you start missing yourself the old one you use to be the happy go lucky.
How that one pink little bubble bursts and pushes you on a bed full of thorns. You become numb. Heartaches hurt but it doesn't heal easily it takes time. A crucial time of life. Your tears flow but you don't feel anything. Your heart gets colder than ice. And then the question that comes to our mind..Why can't a bandage fix a broken heart? Why can't this be easy? why can't you be the same person you use to be? We start blaming ourselves thinking that we are hard to love. Stiching those deep wounds on our own skin gets difficult and more painful. You wanted that person to stay. A little longer than before. Every night becomes one lonely night when all you can hear is the pieces of your heart breaking just like the sound of a mirror breaking. And there are times when you held your emotions for way too long and then just burst out your tears. This cannot be explained in words. We have felt it some or the other day. But just like a coin everything has two sides. So even after breaking, there comes a time when you start healing. Though the healing isn't easy. It is when you start giving yourself a chance and start loving yourself before loving someone else. When you keep your happiness before someone else's. We all have a broken heart, being broken isn't bad, it's still beautiful in its own way, so never let that smile vanish.